Day to day I feel trapped in a Multiplicity of Self…
At times, I am proud of myself, but other times I’m ashamed of my flaws.
I am a kind, loving person but I push people away when they get too close.
Some days I am so inspired, I feel I can do anything. Some days I feel like I’m in over my head.
Some days I feel everything. Some days I am completely numb, just existing.
Some days I feel relaxed and comfortable with people. Some days I feel tense and impatient.
Why am I so complicated? Why can’t I just be the real Me all the time?
How do I get my mind, body, and emotions all on the same page?? To express my true feelings without the need to cover up.
How do I express myself on the days that I feel empty?? I am not a negative person. I know this is a battle I have to keep fighting.
When I become unbalanced, everything falls apart until I realign.
Until I can be the Real Me in every context, I remain emotionally unavailable. It has nothing to do with others, and everything to do with me and my multiplicity of selves…