This week was full of reflections and revelations that helped me to recognize the source of my stress and frustration with my life.
For my entire adult life I have worked, studied, trained, and performed without ever feeling truly satisfied. I always seemed to need more money and more time to fulfill my never ending list of goals.
No matter how busy and stressed, I always felt that I needed to do more professionally, creatively, and personally.
6 months ago, I came to NY with this same attitude. I jumped in head first working 2 jobs, going back to school, constantly moving without permanent housing, trying to make time for dance, and struggling to maintain a relationship.
Needless to say after about 3 months of this madness, I was burnt out, bitter, and disappointed that things turned out nothing like I had imagined.
2 months later, I am living in a homeless shelter. I have decided to focus on one part time job, and my priority is to finish school in Spring. My relationship finally ended after we were both forced to admit that it had become toxic and emotionally draining.
Now that I have slowed down, My mind finally has clarity to see the truth about myself and my decisions. Here are the major lessons I learned.
There has to be a such thing as Enough. (Yogi Principle)
Stop pushing yourself to do more than you can without stress.
An excessive mindset keeps you from being grateful for what you already have.
Eliminate excessiveness and prioritize the essentials..
You don’t have to do more or be more to live your dreams. Learn to work with what you have right here and right now.