Indigenous Peoples Day: Fuck Columbus!

To celebrate American history is to celebrate mass rape and mass murder. It’s to celebrate the notion that the white body is always innocent. Your freedom is dependent on genocide and settler violence.

European colonizers brought generations of torture, psychosis, disease, and trauma to Turtle Island. They did not come in peace. They were rejected, driven by madness and patriarchy and leaders who used religion as a weapon and had been doing so for centuries and continue to do so this very day.

Do not forget how they constructed a nation and desecrated every inch of sacred Indigenous lands. They are doing it now. Do not forget that they would do the same to you and they are doing in now. 

It is a sickness that have not sought redemption from because it is a sickness they refuse to acknowledge…

Text by RISEindigenous: An Indigenous Artist Initiative (IG)

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Fuck settler holidays! Fuck Columbus!

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Believe in Abundance

Living in America as a black woman especially working class has us constantly aware of the many disadvantages we face daily, but remember this is only your physical identity…

Your spiritual nature is full of abundance. The key is to focus on what you have, not what you lack!

Focus on the positive qualities about yourself and your life. When you are feeling discouraged or insecure about your identity and the struggles you’re facing, come back to a positive perspective.

Every day think, write, and speak 10 Positive Affirmations about yourself!

  1. I AM Beautiful, Brilliant, and Bold.
  2. I am full of positive energy, My presence has power and impact
  3. I am unique, there is no one else in this world exactly like me!
  4. I am strong and proud of the things I have overcome to be where I am.
  5. I am Blessed, I may not have everything I want but I have everything I need to be successful!
  6.  I am intelligent, I use my mind to focus on positive solutions to the obstacles I face.
  7. I am creative, I create my own reality!
  8. I am Abundant, I was created to manifest Love, joy, and peace
  9. I am empowered as I focus on uplifting myself and the brilliance of Queens around me.
  10. I am loved…Even if I feel alone, my heart is full of loving energy towards myself and others.

Some of these affirmations may feel difficult to believe, but the idea is constantly affirm yourself until your mind starts to shift. Try it and watch the transformation!

 

Love and Light,

Nisey: Conscious_Queen

Dance Teachers and Ego Trips

Teachers have the power to heal and also to tear down.

This is especially true in the dance community where we are judged almost completely by our outer appearance. 

Through the years, I’ve observed that  many professional dance teachers struggle with ego and insecurity issues. In class, they project this energy onto their students by praising the dancers who boost their ego and putting down the dancers who they find talented, but threatening. I know this behavior is fueled by jealousy, personal bias, and insecurity about their own talent. 

As a professional dancer, I am familiar with the dancers’ ego, especially after moving to NY, but the experience I had in a recent master class was unlike any other experience I’ve faced before. 

I followed my usual routine of warming up and stretching before I joined the class. I did this outside of the room as there was more space but I could also sense the energy of the room felt off.

 The majority of this group was non-dancers who all appeared extremely nervous and fearful to move or even speak. Everyone sat quietly on the floor in small clusters observing each other and making small talk. 

I re-entered the room when it was time to start dancing. As a side note, it has taken me many years to conquer my own fears and insecurities as a dancer. I remember how I used to be the quiet dancer hiding in the back of the room secretly hoping not to be noticed. Now, as a 28 year old dancer, I have come a long way in my confidence. I stepped to the front of the room, not because I felt I was better than anyone, but because I knew this was a masters class in a style that I loved and felt confident in. I wanted to soak up every moment.

However, as soon as I took my place, the instructor boldly asked me to step to the back of the class because of my height. As a professional dancer I knew that this was not the correct protocol. It is the dancers’ responsibility to place themselves in windows so that everyone can see the instructor and be seen. Furthermore, it’s custom for more experienced dancers to stand in the front so that the class can remain in sync. 

As the class continued, it became more clear that the instructor, a petite blonde woman,  had some personal dislike towards me. I knew that it had to be something about my physical presence as we barely had any conversation upon meeting. 

I knew it didn’t feel right, but I went to the back of the class and focused all of my attention on creating positive energy through my dancing. Later on, it was time to learn information from the manual.  A few times I tried to engage and ask questions about the content, but the instructor was dismissive towards me and seemed anxious to call on other students. 

I observed her as  she continued to focus her attention on the two male trainers in the room. She made a point of giving them positive feedback, asking questions,  and clearly answering all of their questions. At one point, I asked her to repeat a piece of information for clarification. Instead of answering my question, she directed me to ask one of the male participants who she enjoyed speaking to during class. 

In general, I am someone who strives to focus on the positive, especially when it comes to my passion of dance. I tried my best not to have an emotional reaction or jump to conclusions about why I was being treated this way. But the truth is, the situation did bother me and made me think more about the issue of dance teachers and ego trips. This is not the first time I have experienced or witnessed a dance teacher intentionally using their position to put down another dancer…how can someone who calls themselves a professional have such a problem with another person who they don’t even know?

I would call this a mild experience because I know that there are many dancers in the field who have experienced even worse treatment because of their appearance-size, color, shape, dance level, or physical ability.  Dance is meant to be a form of expression and emotional release, but there will always be those who are stuck in their own ego, personal bias, and superficiality. 

The dance scene is a tough business. In many ways, I appreciate that because it has helped me to build a  thick skin when it comes to being bold and confident while being publicly observed and judged. At the same time though, I don’t believe in putting others down to feel better about yourself or for any other reason. Because of this, I’m conscious of who I invest my energy in. I refuse to waste time and money in a dance class or community that doesn’t value the basic principle of treating all humans with respect and dignity when I know that there are plenty of welcoming spaces where I can learn in a positive, inclusive atmosphere.

The way to survive in this field is to find like minded creatives who support you and your vision…that is your tribe. Anyone who doesn’t appreciate you for who you are, does not deserve your time, energy, or talent.

You Will Be Too Much For Some People

 

The Spirit Led Journey

Prioritizing Spirit in a Physical World

Everyday I see how difficult it is to prioritize the Spiritual in a world that glorifies the physical world. Society conditions us to believe that our pursuit of happiness revolves around the physical journey; chasing money, relationships, and higher status. 

My truest desire is to live a life of true love, peace, and happiness, a pure inner state that is not dependent on anything external. 

Many times on my journey, I’ve made the decision to be spiritually led, but I feel like it’s still so easy to drift away. When I’m working too hard, I become distracted by my own emotions, wants and needs for survival.

I worry about how things will come together if I don’t take more control….

I fall into the trap of trying to fulfill my dreams and happiness through external things like  money, relationships, and social recognition. 

The hardest part of my journey is not compromising my vision for the sake of making money. As a dancer, it’s easy to be led astray by all the gimmicks and illusions of the commercial world.

According to  the societal norm,  If I want to be a professional performer (the kind that has thousands of instagrams followers) I should change my appearance and style to be the sexy “bad bitch” that sells. 

I’ve tried doing what I thought it takes to get into that world… I am always disappointed. It only brings me closer to becoming someone else and further from myself.

I’m at the point where I’m so exhausted, I’ve been through so much to get where I am and I no longer have time to waste on identity crisis. 

Chasing dreams from the outside in has been fruitless and unfulfilling…none of my physical accomplishments have had long term success,not in relationships, jobs, or my dance career. 

On this physical journey, My recurring theme has been return to Spirit…   I don’t want to keep falling for the illusions and traps that leave me constantly striving for things that will never fulfill me. 

I just want to be MY Highest Creative Self. 

I just want to live my passion on this Earth and make a positive impact while I’m here.

I know it’s not the path of highest popularity, but in my soul I know that fulfilling my inner purpose is the only path that brings lasting happiness. 

seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 

Matt 6:33