I’ve got to get through this. Lately, I’m finding myself frustrated with every part of my life.
With Dance, I can’t seem to stop judging and comparing myself to the people around me. I feel like a stand out because of my age and race…My insecurities are affecting my confidence and my attitude. I just want to be successful so badly that I’m pressuring myself and expecting too much too soon. I’m feeling stressed instead of having fun expressing myself.
I really need to relax.
With each day I know that this is the beginning of a new season. I can’t find peace in anything anymore. There’s only emptiness and brokenness left here. I try so hard to keep myself from sinking down into it every day. I’m fighting so hard to keep my dreams alive and I’m glad that I made it this far, but I don’t feel like I’m living my life yet.
I’m tired of just getting by, accepting whatever life hands me, finding the tiniest glimpses of happiness once in a rare blue moon.
I feel trapped and isolated and I’m tired of feeling like this. I have to be courageous and ambitious enough to build the life I dream of rather than accept the second rate life I’ve been given. The longer I’m here, the more bitter and resentful I become. It’s been 10 years.. I finally realize that staying here is holding me back from the life I could be living.
I just want to be happy, that’s the only thing I’ve ever really wanted.
Stop Believing that you are powerless and forced to accept a second rate life. You have the power to achieve any goal you set your mind to.
It’s hard to turn away from people who need help, But I can’t save the world, I can only save myself…I can’t continue being the one that makes everyone else happy while I’m miserable underneath. Don’t I deserve to be happy?
You have the Power to do anything you put your mind to.
[feeling jaded and bitter]
Everyone around me expects positivity but my patience is fading. I’m tired of forcing myself through each day.
I can’t breathe between my thoughts, I can’t see between my tears. I can’t believe how long I’ve been unhappy.
Im going to lose my mind if I dont move on from here.
I’m at the point where I’m frustrated with everything around me here…Everywhere I turn I’m surrounded by dead end jobs, everyone struggling to make ends meet, the same old situations never improving, limited opportunities, mediocrity..
For some, it’s easier to remain in misery than to work towards change.
For me, the pressure is enough to push me into success. I refuse to keep living like this, working two jobs just to pay bills and barely having the time for my Art.
I can’t accept this. We went to college and earned degrees. We deserve more than this. Staying here is Not an Option! Leaving is the only way to gain the career and life I deserve. I’m working, training, and counting the days until I can say goodbye to this place.
I’m Reaching the point in my career where people see my talent and everyone wants a piece… the problem is that people are only looking out for themselves. At first it sounds like a great opportunity for exposure, but I now realize the truth. People want to use me as a dancer/choreographer to make their productions better. It’s not about me at all. They don’t realize or even care about how hard it is for me to sacrifice the time to put dances together while I’m working every day. They think they are doing me a favor, but they don’t realize that I am already a professional paid dance instructor and Choreographer. I don’t need to jump at every opportunity people throw at me, especially people who aren’t even offering to pay me.
I know that it’s good to help people and be suportive, but it’s time to look out for myself. I’ll be 26 next month and I have enough challenges trying to build a career as a performer. I’m done with giving my time to others just to be supportive. I have my own dreams and visions that I need to put into action, but I keep pushing them aside by giving away the little time I have off.
It’s time to start thinking and acting like a Professional Artist. It’s time to start focusing on what I want not what other people want from me. It’s time to let go of extra commitments and prioritize my goals as a performing artist. I have to start saying no to things that don’t line up with my vision. It’s not to be mean. It’s the only way I will ever get to where I want to be.