I am learning how to free myself from the Fear of Perception. I constantly remind myself that it doesn’t matter what people think of me because I know who I am.
I do not allow people to control my thoughts or emotions. I refuse to allow anyone make me feel ashamed, intimidated or inferior.
I do not fear rejection. I would rather stand alone than try to make myself fit where I don’t belong.
There is nothing anyone can say or do that will make me change or stop me from being my true self.
And maybe they’ll like me and maybe they won’t, but I’m not going to hide.
I will not live in fear and shame.
I know who I am and I will not change to fit expectations.I will be myself even under pressure.
I owe that to myself. I owe nothing to you.
My biggest challenge as a person and an artist is the fear of perception. I struggle to be myself freely and fully because of this fear. The logical part of me knows that it really doesn’t matter what other people think. I don’t need their approval, but still the thought is always in my mind,
What will they think?
This is an issue I face in every area of my life, at work, church, relationships, wherever people are involved. In every relationship I have, I secretly worry about the way other people see me.
As a performer, I’m still uncomfortable when I have to perform solo and all eyes are on me. I always end up toning myself down so I won’t stand out. I love performing, but it is not easy to be in spotlight and not feel fearful or anxious.
Fear has been a struggle for me throughout my entire life. I wish there was a way to escape it or erase the thought from my mind, but I’m learning that fear, like all emotional/mental issues, is not something that I can just turn off. Fear is a mindset that I work to overcome daily. Here is where trust and surrender comes in.
I accept the fact that I cannot conquer my fears on my own, and I give it to God. Every day I seek God to help me overcome my fears. Every day I meditate on these affirmations whenever I feel my fear creeping up.
- God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and sound mind.
- People are just people and there is no reason to fear them.
- My true intention is to please God and not people.
Every day it gets easier and the fear does not rule my mind the way it used to. Every day I continue to face my fears by taking chances, auditioning, and performing in new places. Today when I look at all my accomplishments, I realize that I’m now doing things that I used to only dream of.