I hate that it feels like my race and gender is tied to being….underadvantaged, unequal, and underestimated.
Everywhere I go, I have no choice but to notice the top and bottom. Who is on the top? Who always seems to be in authority?
Who is always the employee?
I’m sick of being on the bottom, always struggling, fighting for opportunities that others can experience freely.
I want to travel, speak multiple languages, climb mountains, fly on an airplane, surf, ride a motorcyle, perform on Broadway.
Why does it feel like these things are unheard of for a person like me?
I want to see positive examples of myself in the media. I want to see myself as a superhero, Business woman, Leader.
Not the stripper, babymama, or the angry black woman.
No matter how hard it gets, I know that I can’t settle for the low status that society tries to keep me in. Even if I have to work twice as hard, I will reach the top of this glass ceiling and then burst through it.
This Year I can feel that it’s time to shift into a new season. I’m shifting away from survival mode and into Desire. It’s time to start manifesting the life of my dreams.
I’m tired of counting down the days until I can breathe again. I want to enjoy my life, my body, my money, my career, and my journey. The life I desire requires more! More creating, more inspiration, more connection, more expression.
I Give Myself permission to take it to the next level!
I am taking the necessary steps to create the Life I Desire.
I accept my path as a Free Spirit Artist. I am not meant to be tied down by my job, my family, or my location.I don’t need relationships or labels. Long term commitments make me feel suffocated and trapped. I belong to no one. I am not meant to stay in one place. In every season of my life, I learn what I need to and then it’s time for me to move on. I am constantly evolving. I change my job, I change my friends, I change my style, I change my mind. I welcome my present source of inspiration. I let go of negative energy that binds me down. I love having time to myself. Being alone does not make me feel lonely. It brings me peace. I need space to move, breathe and just be myself.
Don’t worry about what people think. This is Your Daily Walk.
It’s better to be rejected by Humans than rejected by God.
God’s will is the greatest force in my life. God is leading and directing me into my destiny. I submit to God’s will. With my life in my own hands, things fall apart, but God’s ways are higher than mine. I can’t see all the answers, but God knows what’s best for me right now and in my future.
John 15:5-I am the Vine, You are the Branches. Those who remain in me and I in them will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing.
Four years ago my life was different. As a person, I was more focused on pleasing people than doing what was right for me. As a dancer, I felt the need to conform to an image that was given to me rather than being true to my own identity. I was so focused on money and attention that I put myself in a dangerous situation and I paid the consequences. Since then, I’ve learned from my past and decided that I will Never value people, money, or attention above my peace, happiness or well being again.