FRee Spirit LOve?

Up until recently I thought of myself as a Free Spirit… Then a new friend brought up that I am actually high strung. I was irritated at first, but I knew she had valid points.

Since I moved to NY, I’ve been in constant work mode, It’s hard to relax…Rent is outrageously high, I don’t have my own place yet, I need a Second job, and I’m starting school next week. Most of my day when I’m not working is spent traveling / navigating around the City so by the end of the day I’m exhausted. With all that, I’ve barely had the time and energy to do the thing I came here to do…. DANCE!

I’m trying my best to calm it down, but I know I have a tendency to make things even more complicated by trying to do everything myself. Yesterday, most of my day consisted of trying to meet up with my friend in Central Park. We started at 1 and we didn’t find each other until 5….. So many things went wrong, But instead of going with simple solutions to make things faster, I insisted on trying to figure it out myself. What started as a leisurely Sunday afternoon ended up being a complicated, exhausting journey. Needless to say, I had the worst attitude by the time my friend met up with me…

She talked with me about it and told me to stop being so hard on myself (by that time I was going on a full rant about all the time I wasted by going to the wrong location). We went back and forth for a while, But I had to admit she was right…. 

Yes, I can be very high strung and complicated for no reason… My mind just works that way. 

So how do I get back to being my old, carefree and Free Spirited Self??

Maybe I need to accept my own limitations and Stop trying to do it all on my own.

Maybe I should try to be more patient with myself and learn to enjoy the journey rather than fixating on the outcome.

Maybe I need to stop fighting against my own emotions and admit that I Really Like this Girl!

Maybe I just need to Stop trying to control everything and Just Let it Happen (as long as it’s not leading to danger or harm of course).

Those things are all easier said than done…But Today is a new Day and I’m going to try my best.

Peace, Love, Happiness

Shenise G.

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I.LET.GO

release

I Let Go of …

Trying to change, trying to fix, trying to be perfect, trying to hold on to brokenness, trying to do it all, trying to please, trying to be everything to everyone, trying to control things beyond my control.

I Let Go of..

My fears-fear of the unknown, fear of perception, fear of rejection, fear of lack, fear of success, fear of failure, fear of abandonment, fear of judgment, fear of disapproval,  fear of vulnerability.

I Let Go of…

My expectations, insecurities, self-doubt, self condemnation, self sabotage, bitterness, jealousy, drama, over-thinking, worrying, expecting too much.

I let Go of shame, guilt, and pain.

I let Go because I am drained and stressed out of my mind, and that is NOT WHO I AM MEANT TO BE.

I was called TO BE FREE.

Let go and Start Living.
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