Stories of an Empath

For years, I’ve been emotionally imbalanced. Being swept along by my emotions, back and forth between bottling everything inside and watching it all explode in the ugliest ways.

Being unaware of my emotional depth and incapable of Navigating my sea of emotions has caused me to feel sad and disconnected from people and hurt the ones closest to me.

For years, I couldn’t express what I didn’t understand. I thought I must be dramatic, overly sensitive, or even psychotic. I used to criticize myself and feel ashamed whenever I felt I was being too Emotional. I didn’t understand how much I was only hurting myself by trying to bury my emotions.

Now, I know that the word for people like me. There’s even a whole science behind it. Being this way isn’t easy, but it’s my responsibility to figure

When you are an Empath,

1. You feel strongly and deeply. You form strong energetic connections to fellow empaths without even trying to.

2. Your energy is affected by your environment, other people, even the weather…I used to wonder why I felt so sad on cloudy, rainy days and why I lose my motivation towards the end of the day. It is because I draw my energy from the sun.

3. Negative energy is toxic and draining to be around. You have to be selective about the people and conversations you surround yourself with or you will find yourself absorbing negative energy without realizing.

*It takes constant effort and practice to learn how to Protect Your Energy during your daily life!

4. Music is a form of energy. It speaks to me in a way I cannot understand. I find myself crying to certain songs I hear on the radio, but the music I love lifts me up so High that it turns any sadness into joy.

5. You carry an abundance of emotional energy with you at all times. As much as I try, I cannot help but to experience multiple emotions at one time. I can’t turn it off I can only learn to listen and understand what my soul is trying to tell me.

6. Certain things just don’t mix with your energy. For me, Drinking and smoking are the main things to avoid if I’m imbalanced because

1. It taints my energy and aura.

2. It amplifies all of my emotional struggles.

7. You need physical/Creative outlets. You need to do things that allow you to Feel!!

Movement is an outlet to process and channel your emotional energy. Creating, dance, yoga, and nature walks are not just what I love, they are what I need. If I ever take a break from it, I’m back to being empty and depressed.

8. People prone to depression and anxiety are typically empathic and feel things easily and deeply (Kamm 127).

The more I understand, the more I can control my emotions. I’m learning to shape my life around my emotional needs.

It is ok to do what makes you happy.

It is ok to stop doing things that hurt you or negatively affect your energy.

Whenever you feel overwhelmed or confused, come back to this guide.

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Finding Balance- The Art of Self Care

The physical world is so full of demands, it feels like balance is hard to find and even harder to maintain. Between work and commitments to family and friends, it’s easy to push your own personal needs aside. But you must learn to value your own Emotional and Mental health above everything else .

How do you remain balanced when your energy is being pulled in so many different directions??

This year juggling three jobs, multiple shows, and my own personal issues was a daily struggle. I learned that The more you  share your energy with everyone around you, the more people begin to want and expect your energy.  People are drawn to  and can even become dependent on your positive energy.

But what happens when you are burnt out?

Eventually, it becomes draining to constantly be the motivator, especially when your own emotional needs aren’t being fulfilled. After a while, it felt like I was giving my energy away to everyone else around me and there was none left for myself. I started to feel angry and resentful towards the people around me. They expected me to smile and laugh all day long,  but they had no Idea how frustrated and depressed I really felt. Some days felt like I was just playing a role for the sake of those around me.

In order to keep your peace of mind, you have to prioritize your own mental and emotional needs.   It’s ok to draw boundaries, it is ok to have time to yourself.

It is okay to not be ok. 

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