Psychology of Self

Exploring What it means to be an…

Introverted

Empathic

Highly sensitive

Woman, teacher, creator, performer, student striving and in search of Peace, Love, and Happiness.

Balance

Adapting to stress and demands of work and society. Feeling pressured to be on always, finding balance with alone time and not feeling bad for it.

Anxiety

I wish I didn’t think so much, but it’s the way I function.

Wanting to come out of my shell, sexually and creatively…

practicing non-judgment with myself, especially with the quirks I’m insecure about..

Not being able to climax with others….

Healing

Understanding my past and Healing from toxic relationships, emotional abuse

The trap of non-expression, depression and isolation

Unlearning ingrained patterns in my mind and soul: fears that keep me silent and shut down, overcoming shame and guilt, learning to let go

Communicating

With dating,  deciding to try it again with an open minded attitude, positive, and accepting but still look out for myself. In the past, I would get so negative and fearful, it has kept me away from trying to get to know people and letting people know me, but it gets lonely, I want to be able to be open and communicate.

Don’t assume that people are out to judge you or hurt you. Some people just want to love you.

Vulnerability

Is still hard and still scary, I’m learning that it can’t be avoided.  I’m trying to learn to embrace it. It does get easier with conscious effort and practice. I have to remind myself that I’m ok. I’m learning not to give people power over my emotions. It is ok to have emotions and to express them.  I’m learning to be comfortable in my own skin.

With everything, I know that people see me in many different ways. I can’t ignore the thoughts,but I can make them positive and loving instead of fearful and negative.

Psychology Today-Explanation of Introverts

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-secret-lives-introverts/201707/the-reason-introverts-might-think-too-much

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Dreams-Living vs. Speaking

What have I learned from my first attempt at living my dreams in NYC and briefly coming home to friends and family?….

It’s easier to Live Your Dreams Out Loud than to speak them out loud.

Speaking your dreams gives people the chance to cut them down and implant seeds of Doubt into your Vision.

I know why I left this place….Being here Drains my energy. I’m constantly surrounded by voices of Fear.

It’s takes all the strength I have just to stay inspired from day to day…

Is there anyone here that can lift me up??

There goes that anxious, restless feeling that tells me it’s time to go.

From now on, I’ll share even less about my journey.

I want my accomplishments to speak for themselves.

One Day at a Time

Reality has a way of Humbling me.

Breaking me to my knees,

Sreaming in my face…

“Wake Up Cinderella!”

I’m trying to stop jumping the gun. I keep trying to make things happen before it’s time…I’m a control freak.

I’m trying to stop setting my expectations so high, it’s a setup for disappointment. Things in my life are never the way I see them in my mind.

Why do Dreams Manifest so slowly?

It’s hard to break these habits because I want what I want so badly. It feels like I’ve been waiting my whole life… Every day I pray for strength, patience, and peace. There never seems to be enough.

I’m trying to let Go and let God lead. I’m trying…Pray for me.

NYC Journey- Life Lessons

What Have I learned since I moved to NYC two months ago?

1. This is a year of transition… Challenges and complications are part of the process. I’m still learning to face my challenges with a confident attitude instead of an irritated, defeated one. Although it is mentally/emotionally, and physically draining at times, I have to remain inspired. Starting over and moving here was my own decision. I have to remember my reasons for that.

2. Pace Yourself…. I came here with a lot of major goals-Participate in a Pro. Dance program, Audition, live on my own, work, go back to school. After the first month, I realized that my financial situation will not allow me to accomplish all of these goals at the same time. 

Now how do I adjust, re-focus and stay inspired without allowing disappointment to take over my mind and emotions?

3. Be Consistent….Every day I feel impatient with where I am in life. I want to speed things up to the way they are in my mind…I want to make drastic changes. I don’t want to sit around and wait for the changes to come in their own time. I want to do more and more instead of remaining fully focused on reaching the goals I’m already working towards.

How do I learn to be content with where I am, develop a consistent attitude without changing my mind and turning to bad habits when life gets stressful?

How can I be more patient and accepting of myself and my journey?

FRee Spirit LOve?

Up until recently I thought of myself as a Free Spirit… Then a new friend brought up that I am actually high strung. I was irritated at first, but I knew she had valid points.

Since I moved to NY, I’ve been in constant work mode, It’s hard to relax…Rent is outrageously high, I don’t have my own place yet, I need a Second job, and I’m starting school next week. Most of my day when I’m not working is spent traveling / navigating around the City so by the end of the day I’m exhausted. With all that, I’ve barely had the time and energy to do the thing I came here to do…. DANCE!

I’m trying my best to calm it down, but I know I have a tendency to make things even more complicated by trying to do everything myself. Yesterday, most of my day consisted of trying to meet up with my friend in Central Park. We started at 1 and we didn’t find each other until 5….. So many things went wrong, But instead of going with simple solutions to make things faster, I insisted on trying to figure it out myself. What started as a leisurely Sunday afternoon ended up being a complicated, exhausting journey. Needless to say, I had the worst attitude by the time my friend met up with me…

She talked with me about it and told me to stop being so hard on myself (by that time I was going on a full rant about all the time I wasted by going to the wrong location). We went back and forth for a while, But I had to admit she was right…. 

Yes, I can be very high strung and complicated for no reason… My mind just works that way. 

So how do I get back to being my old, carefree and Free Spirited Self??

Maybe I need to accept my own limitations and Stop trying to do it all on my own.

Maybe I should try to be more patient with myself and learn to enjoy the journey rather than fixating on the outcome.

Maybe I need to stop fighting against my own emotions and admit that I Really Like this Girl!

Maybe I just need to Stop trying to control everything and Just Let it Happen (as long as it’s not leading to danger or harm of course).

Those things are all easier said than done…But Today is a new Day and I’m going to try my best.

Peace, Love, Happiness

Shenise G.

Confessions of a Dancer…A Lonely Path

some days I feel strong

some days I’m tired of being the only one….

I got a few to count on

But I have to walk this path alone.

Seems like every time someone comes into my life I have to let them go.

I cant let anybody slow me down. I worked too hard just to get here.

I can’t let anybody slow me down. I conquered too much just to get here.

Even if I’m standing alone. I won’t let anyone pull me down.

Spiritual Destiny 


I am more than my physical appearance. I am more than my gifts and talents. I am a living soul and spirit.
I accept that I am a complex being made of mind, body, spirit, and soul. I understand that my greater purpose is to live through each of these dimensions by finding balance and harmony among each part.

You cannot separate your spiritual destiny from your physical journey, Everything is connected.