Help Me

It’s hard to turn away from people who need help, But I can’t save the world, I can only save myself…I can’t continue being the one that makes everyone else happy while I’m miserable underneath. Don’t I deserve to be happy? 

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Fear of Perception

fear is not real

My biggest challenge as a person and an artist is the fear of perception. I struggle to be myself freely and fully because of this fear. The logical part of me knows that it really doesn’t matter what other people think. I don’t need their approval, but still the thought is always in my mind,

What will they think?

This is an issue I face in every area of my life, at work, church, relationships, wherever people are involved. In every relationship I have,  I secretly worry about the way other people see me.

As a performer,  I’m still uncomfortable when I have to perform solo and all eyes are on me. I always end up toning myself  down so I won’t stand out. I love performing,  but it is not easy to be in spotlight and not feel fearful or anxious.

Fear has been a struggle for me throughout my entire life. I wish there was a way to escape  it or erase the thought from my mind, but I’m learning that fear, like all emotional/mental issues, is not something that I can just turn off. Fear is a mindset that  I  work to overcome daily. Here is where trust and surrender comes in.

I accept the fact that  I cannot conquer my  fears on my own, and  I give it to God.  Every day I seek God to help me overcome my fears. Every day  I meditate on these affirmations whenever I feel my fear creeping up.

  1. God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and sound mind.
  2. People are just people and there is no reason to fear them.
  3. My true intention is  to please God and not people.

Every day it gets easier and the fear does not rule my mind the way it used to. Every day I continue to face my fears by taking chances, auditioning, and performing in new places.   Today when I look at all my accomplishments, I realize that I’m now doing things that I used to only dream of.

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